Can You Walk A Mile In My Shoe?

do you know what it feels like to be in pain 24/7's?
do you know what it feels like to be screaming and no one hears you?
do you know how it feels to have a head ache that never goes away at all?
do you know what it feels like to want your family and they cant be with you?
do you know what its like to have tears rolling down your cheeks and there is no one to wipe em away?
do you know what its like to feel like there is no love here?
do you know how it feels to be invisible?
ever felt like some one is choking you can you cant stop it?
ever felt like you cant breathe even when the fan is in your face?
ever felt like some has a knife piercing through your heart back and forth slowly?
ever had some one listen to your pain but they never really heard what you said?
do you know what its like to know the one you want the most doesn't even wanna see you?
do you really mean it when you say you live each day like its your last, but when you go to sleep you still think of thing you wanna do the next day...if you really live each day like its your last then you wouldn't be looking forward to the next.
do know how it feels to bottle up all your pain? afraid to tell anyone? not even god?
have you lost the one person who really understood you?
have you ever wanted sugar and got salt?
have you ever had everyone who cares around you and still be lonely?
have you ever felt hated by your own blood?
have you ever felt that the truth would kill you?
do you know what its like to want someone to hug you and tell you its going to be ok?
when was the last time someone held you and cried with you?
do you still have dreams? aspirations? goals? if you still do then you ain't ready to leave this world yet..

there is no medicine strong enough to take my pain away
there ain't no one who knows my pain
ain't no one who understands me 
ain't no one gonna stand for my judgement
ain't no one gonna keep my heart beating for me
ain't no one gonna be able to put me together again
stopped dreaming on January 15, 2009...started accepting things in life and waiting for my expiration date

I Cherish You

I have called your name over a hundred times already
you held my hand so i wouldn't fall
you waited an hour for me until i was ready
you always picked up not matter when i call
you wiped my tears
you waited at the bottom of the stairs
you help me get through my darkest fears
oh i cant explain it feels like years
you read my poem out loud 
you remind me of the silver lining in each cloud
you gave me the benefit of the doubt
i adore you so much i just want to shout 
tenderness and kindness you show
sympathy and love you give me when i am feeling low
how much you really, really care the world may never know
but i do...
because i cherish you
i love you
and everything that you do
stand by me forever they never thought
but i always knew
through thick and thin you would be there 
with open arms and an ear
i feel so lucky to have you here
so many things went wrong
so many days that seemed so long
oh how i would seek comfort in our song
for when you are not here i don't feel as if i belong
you do not give me strength but you remind me that i am strong
heaven only knows the joy you bring to my life
the way you make me laugh
no price is fair enough if i had to purchase what you give
i don't wanna miss anything, life is too short not to live happy
even if not my best you still love me
and even when you are not with me i still love you
i believe in you
and everything you do
waking up to someone like you 
its a great feeling, like i am renewed
i cherish you
for being you
and when the sun refuses to shine
i will cherish you
and when the moon turns black
i will always have your back
and when no one is around 
i will be here
to cherish, love and care
i love you so much words are not enough to express ow happy i am
i thank god that he blessed me with you....

And So She Passed

my voice is gone, i am trying to speak to you
but no matter how i try no sound is there
i am loosing my color, i am trying to touch you
but i cant find the strength to reach out
i am so pale, can you see me?
i am slowly fading, do you notice?
i cannot hear the sounds around me
only the slow beats of my heart 
thudding so slowly, only a matter of time before it stops
my viison is decreasing rapidly
everything is a blurr
i cannot find my way home
my feet stumble againist each other 
how can i find m way home?
my oxygen supply is running out
it feels like someone is choking me 
gasp, gasp.....
its like all my senses are dead
i cant even smell 
i am drowing in the stench of pain 
the agonny of dying alone
how do i tell you i love you?
how do i stop this?
you are the cure to my sickness
can you see me to heal me?
do you care enough to help me?
are you so cold you will stand and watch me die?

[ news report just in]

Lacianne Chellcy Russell Martin was found dead at her home in the bahamas at around 5:35pm, tuesday november 4th, 2008, a note was found but with evidence found on arrival the words faded so faintly no one could comprehend what was written. the crime scene unit didnt bother to investigate for this case wasnt homocide or sucide but was of natural causes...post mortem reveals she died from a broken heart. 


[breaking news*] 

a call just came in..it was said that miss russell was at the doctor about an hour before her death, the doctor told us....''as i listened to her chest, i heard no weezing but i had to ask if she suffered from heart problems because of the rate her heart was beating. it was as if it was chasign somting. i went on to examine her further where i found signs of a chest infection. i wrote her a note to the pharmacy for treatment to begin immeaditly.'' it is believed that she was too far along to be saved...the medicine was no help at all....now the search begins for the person who broke her heart!!!