50 Promises

I promise to laugh
I promise to cry
I promise to give
I promise to take
I promise to be here
I promise never to leave
I promise to listen
I promise to support you
I promise to be fair
I promise not to keep secrets
I promise to tell the truth
I promise to care
I promise to pay attention
I promise to be open minded
I promise to share my all
I promise be there when it rains
I promise to share a smile
I promise to respect you
I promise to do things the right way
I promise to be your best friend
I promise to trust you
I promise to compromise
I promise I will always listen
I promise to share your fears
I promise to finish what ever I started
I promise to dream with you
I promise to go where ever you go
I promise to learn new things
I promise to wipe each tear away
I promise to mean each kiss
I promise to always say sorry even if I was wrong
I promise to share your sorrow
I promise to be strong
I promise to never take you for granted
I promise to never loose faith
I promise to never let you feel alone
I promise to shelter you from the storm
I promise to work our problems out
I promise to be your partner alone
I promise to be here when you fall to catch you
I promise to be sincere
I promise to keep all my promises
I promise to be honest and true
I promise to never stop loving you

It’s why I love you

The way you make funny moves with your face
Or when you play it off when you ignore me
The way you roll your eyes when you feel my gaze
I hate the way you lick your lips when I come up close
I hate the way you stare at me
I hate it so much when you laugh at what ever I do
But this is why I love you
I hate so many things that you do but I don’t hate you
I love when you sit and let me stare without asking
I love when you kiss my lips goodbye and not my cheek
I love the way you search my eyes.
I hope you find what you were looking for in them for you always seem to smile. When I left you, that’s when I didn’t have much to say but that’s when I knew I loved you. Words couldn’t explain how I felt, and there is nothing you can do to change my mind. Ill try if you try, ill make this promise tonight…you can count on me for life, the more I learn the more I want, until my heart has had enough that’s when I am going to love you. I love you more than you ever know, these words are like orchids delicate and rare and even when you cant feel what I do…ill always love you.

Take me as i am........

Take me as I am…
I have given my all
I still don’t understand
Why can’t a dream come through?
The freedom in your arms
The hope that moves me
The wind playing across my face
Time adds to this flame
The more you push me away the more I am drawn to you
I am not the angel on the tree
I just wish your choice was me
I need you like water
Take my hand
Look into my eyes and let me know the truth
How you feel and what you see
Hold me when I cry
Listen to my thoughts
Come to my rescue and stand by me
For deep down ever since the night we met the safest place
I feel is in your arms with you…..

Its you

Its you
I keep on wondering if you will ever come through
I cannot stop thinking caught up
I keep thinking I am just running behind a dream
I was even thinking if this was wasting time
But I wasn’t seeing any signs
Was it because you were on your grind?
I go out with ma girls
Trying to have a good time,
Took a quick trip to erase you
But all I can see is the color of your eyes
And the thought of how you make me smile
But this is an illusion
Causing pure confusion
I am breaking apart
And you are leaving footprints on my heart
I leave a million messages
Telling you how much I miss you
Voicemails going crazy
Just wanting to know you ok
But am I doing too much?
What is the issue?
This is something I am not into
Breaking apart by doing too much…..

How do i breathe?

How do I breathe?
I am walking away
With no oxygen around me
I turn around to run back to you
But you are not there
I am consumed by fear
If I stay here it will be too late
I will die before you realize what happened
Now the pieces of my heart spell s.o.s
I saw your soul right through your eyes
I joined in your aura with your kiss
My love poured out like water
I am going to drown without you
How do I breathe?
Between the lines, between wrong and right
A tear on this page
Please go against the odds
For what is true
Your eyes already captured me
Her I am I can’t breathe with out you
In your arms I am dying
What are you doing?

It courses through my veins

Like liquid fire

I cannot stop it

It is my hearts utmost desire

A bullet to kill

your guts I spill your slaughter ,

my brutal oath

serpent I am

Enter my Eden

The garden is yours

The fruit of my body

Bloody and abused Black and blue

Beaten and screwed

like a whore

Take a sip of the devils blood

A goat I am,

Drunken and stoned

Death with pleasure,

A thrill I kill for

A gun in my hand blow your fucking brains out

Brutal slaughtering of my evil vow

Destruction and power will be mine

this is my hour

Bloody kill

Death to the pitiful and weak

Only a bullet from my gun will speak

Wrenched whore

drain away your wealth with my violent substance

Hacking away at the flesh of a beast

you are too weak,

beating on you for a week

Hatred consumed for my little whore

take your death like a good dog

Nothing more then an empty shell I don’t care

I will kill

Death will spill all over the land

A brand to make,

A shot to take

Drunken and stoned

A gun in my hand blow your brains out

Little whore you are too fucking weak

Only a bullet through your dome will speak

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The past will always be inscribed in your life
The hurt
The pain
Love is my biggest fear
Falling to your tender touch and endless voice is a music box in my head
As the dancer goes around and around my thoughts storm about my mind
The right words are not here
I have babbled to my self a million times that you cannot be in love unless you with the person
But then it was so strong and so hard to hide but that was a fear I had overcome
What a task that was … to give up the one thing you wanted so much
Well a strong mind and strong will was all I needed
But it didn’t go away but got pushed in the back seat
Now that I have you where I want you
All for me and only me
I am trying to get all that back but it wont come back to me
But I have a want and need and drive to be all you need
I might sound demanding but
I want to give you all I have
I want to be the smile you put on your face
I want when you are with me it to be your favorite place
I want to be your hot summer day in august
I want to be your greatest lust
You are words to my song
Your name is the title and your kisses are the lyrics
Ok you what frig all I wrote in the top of this………
I don’t know what in the world to say but I am baffled and confused because I waited so long just to get you and I even convinced my self it would never happen. I know so many guys like you but I promised my self not to jump to anything and think you are like them because not everyone is what they look like and that’s judging a book by the cover. And don’t get me wrong I am not judging you; I really do want to share something great and worth while with you. But bear with me if I seem lost at times because I am still fighting my barrier to open up to you. I believe at this moment I am writing in circles but I don’t really care I will write until I get to what my point is. For one I am in love with you but I cannot say it or tell you that because it sounds not so logical at this moment. But I have to stay true and real to let you know what the vibes are. Anyone else in this world who does not think me and you is not a good idea can kiss my ass. I am not going to be controlled by the world and everything in it because what I want and I need I have and I don’t need them to try take it away. So many times I really believe I am dreaming but when I look around there are so many things telling me to stop letting my mind control me. But you are an enigma to me. I cannot figure you well at least I don’t know much about you but it’s the suspense and waiting to find out that makes it all worth doing. I am one of the girls who prove the 11th man theory...put me In a room with 10 guys who are talking to me giving me attention and never leave my side but then you walk in the 11th man…pays no attention to me, turn your back and ignore me and is having a conversation to someone else but all I want is to try and get your attention. I don’t want to be petted or have a bunch of people telling me I am pretty but I want the attention on the one man who didn’t even notice me when he walked in. I have no idea I if explained that properly but it’s the relative truth to what I wanted to say. I have so much more to tell but something’s are going to be held for now until you absorb all I just babbled on and on about.