When he walked away

I stood frozen like a crystal,
unable to move as i watch him turn away.

He walks slowly towards his car,
taps his pocket for his keys,
opens the door gently and get behind the wheels

Without looking back he drove off
and there i was standing in amazement
thinking of that wonderful sound of his voice whispering in my ear
his touch so tender against my body

Then like a rain drop rolling down a leaf
a tear fell out of my eye,
rolled down my cheek and splatter on the ground
still staring in mid air as if he was there

Slowly a humming begins
i am missing him already
soft and tender my heart beats faintly as if death was upon my lips
as i turn pale and my eyes become glass
my ego begins to dance about hoping he will be back soon

Waiting patiently as the week passes
thoughts rage through out my mind of him just being with me
then again i found my rose
my rose that was so beautiful and still in its glass case

A petal fell slowly
as it fell my heart became heavy
my eyes became a ocean
tears came running down my cheeks like a river

For the falling of a petal is the breaking of his love
still i wait for him to return
but such chance is now dead
for when he walked away
he left me frozen and my heart became a crystal rose
as the petals fall i become numb to the feeling of being loved once again.

This is for my ladies written by a bestie

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year ! later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone Else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing! all the bending...compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare. They say it takes minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

Missing you

missing you

you left me

alone in this world alone

everyday i wish you would just on home

everyone misses you nieces and nephews still morn

there was some many things we never got to say

we would love to have you back even for just one day

so many things we never got to do

so many times i wish i could have gone with you

i try to bear the pain

it only seems like everything has become a strain

but no matter i will never give up

i will do my best and keep my pride

we still wait for the day we will see you again

i will never forget how much you ment to me

you were my grandmother, mother and friend

together as one we will always be

i know one day we will all be together as a family again

we will sing,dance, eat and drink ever so happy

Dedicated to ROSE ELLA HARRISON (AUNTIE ROSE, ROSIE, MADA ROSE, MUM, GRAMA ROSE, SIS ROSE, MAMA, MOM) LA LA, DAUGHTER, MISS KITTY, DADDY B, JAMEIL WILCHOMBE, GRETEL HARRISON (AUNTY GRET, GRANNY), SIS ROB, ANNIE.

From your brothers, daughters, son,son in laws, daughter in laws, cousins, granddaughters, grandsons, nieces, nephews, family friends, best friends, and church family.

A risky lullaby

It is what keeps you alive, it a secret only you and him knows the truth. you cannot tell anyone because if you do you face the risk of torment and torture! you both don't what to have to deal with it. but its like a weak poison it is going to kill you but it takes a little while for it go in your system and when it gets there it travels slowly! they say love cannot die so you and him are in separable. you have quiet evenings alone when no one is around. no ones knows about this beautiful spur of love that shines so brightly but is deprived by consequences. just to have a little freedom would be appreciated just have a chance to prove it can work between them! but whatever is done between them is all a big risk. but taking that risk and not get caught is the melody of a risky lullaby when you close your eyes to go to sleep. then over and over again you come close to telling but u suddenly remember its not the choice of one but both person involved. How do you let them know he is the one who has style like a bently cruise or a special shoes! everytime you walk bye all the girls be looking at you! how do i tell them?

To Mr.King........

I love you

I love you so much its hard to say!But no matter what I am saying it today!You make my spine tingle!Thinking of you makes my feet wanting to dance while I hum a jingle!When I was a child to go to the beach is to play in sands but when you grow up you only want to find the hidden treasure in the sand. I have been searching for the one true person who wants me for me and I was blessed with a guy. Wow! He blows my mind. He does not have to go out of his way to make me happy just to listen to him pleases me. If I could make a wish my wish would be for him to be my lover, friend, companion, husband, and faithful rock to be strong for me when I can’t make it through. This guy is a one of a kind cutie he is Mr. Right who was waiting to sweep me off my feet, and I must say he did a darn good job. His smile his touch his big brown eyes they make me so weak and just want to fall into his arms. Baby I am sorry this started in to a poem but I am so over whelmed I have to finish it as an article. The little things in life that makes people happy are the things we all forget to do. My baby calls me from work when he is working late and that tells me I have a man who will be right there when I need him. I know I am getting a little carried away but bear with me for just a couple minutes more. I don’t care if you are not as tall as me you love reaches higher than the sky. And those pink lips that just leave me speechless every time I kiss them I only want to kiss them more. Your cute sexy walk is just smooth and I must say baby you balling. I think if I continue I will run out of pages to write on. And all I am trying to say is you make me happy and I love you and I will always love you no matter what happens I am here for you when you need me. And this wonderful guy who I am talking about is the one reading this right now! Baby! I love you boo!!!!!!

A monent in time

A moment in time


It is all you want he is perfect but what can you do? You have flaws and he wants more and you try and try but no matter what you can never get it right. He slowly drifts away from you and you do every thing you can just to hold on the little thread that keeps you alive. Then you finally break and everything over flows emotions run wild wrath become so sweet and you become cold and mean. But you still have that one tender spot for the one who makes you smile just as you hear his name, the one who makes you laugh no mater how horrible the joke was. The moment you fell in love your heart was his, for him to keep and protect. Then once upon a time a prince turned into a frog and he croaked. He took you for granted and because you love him so much you let it slide. Then there were days where you just begin to cry and you don’t know why. You never saw how sugar became salt so quick. But you love him so much you are willing to keep your salt and wait for it to turn back into sugar. You forgive and forget. You trust again and if you could trade your life for that one chance you would. Just to relive that one special moment, with him is heaven for you. And this is how much you love him but you might not show it and he has no clue. Just tell him! Let him know you will stop time just to stop him from making a mistake. You would do anything to show him that your moment in time is with him!

I am sorry

I am sorry if i forget to tell you how much i love you! I am sorry if i forget your birthday. I am sorry if i did you wrong. Sorry for the things i dint care about the things you need. Sorry for the time i never gave you. Sorry for the long nights and lonely afternoons. Sorry for not being there to comfort you. Sorry for the thing i dint do and the things i did. Sorry for never telling you the things that should have been said. Sorry if i didn't tell you what i am about to say.

I don't care about going out to fancy restaurants and expensive jewelery and tons of gifts. I do care about the one i love so much. I would trade my life for you if you needed it. I would give you my last breath if i needed to. I would give my life just for you. And i am guilty of all you accuse me of and i take full responsibility for it all. This is my apology to you will you please accept?