I Cherish You

I have called your name over a hundred times already
you held my hand so i wouldn't fall
you waited an hour for me until i was ready
you always picked up not matter when i call
you wiped my tears
you waited at the bottom of the stairs
you help me get through my darkest fears
oh i cant explain it feels like years
you read my poem out loud 
you remind me of the silver lining in each cloud
you gave me the benefit of the doubt
i adore you so much i just want to shout 
tenderness and kindness you show
sympathy and love you give me when i am feeling low
how much you really, really care the world may never know
but i do...
because i cherish you
i love you
and everything that you do
stand by me forever they never thought
but i always knew
through thick and thin you would be there 
with open arms and an ear
i feel so lucky to have you here
so many things went wrong
so many days that seemed so long
oh how i would seek comfort in our song
for when you are not here i don't feel as if i belong
you do not give me strength but you remind me that i am strong
heaven only knows the joy you bring to my life
the way you make me laugh
no price is fair enough if i had to purchase what you give
i don't wanna miss anything, life is too short not to live happy
even if not my best you still love me
and even when you are not with me i still love you
i believe in you
and everything you do
waking up to someone like you 
its a great feeling, like i am renewed
i cherish you
for being you
and when the sun refuses to shine
i will cherish you
and when the moon turns black
i will always have your back
and when no one is around 
i will be here
to cherish, love and care
i love you so much words are not enough to express ow happy i am
i thank god that he blessed me with you....

And So She Passed

my voice is gone, i am trying to speak to you
but no matter how i try no sound is there
i am loosing my color, i am trying to touch you
but i cant find the strength to reach out
i am so pale, can you see me?
i am slowly fading, do you notice?
i cannot hear the sounds around me
only the slow beats of my heart 
thudding so slowly, only a matter of time before it stops
my viison is decreasing rapidly
everything is a blurr
i cannot find my way home
my feet stumble againist each other 
how can i find m way home?
my oxygen supply is running out
it feels like someone is choking me 
gasp, gasp.....
its like all my senses are dead
i cant even smell 
i am drowing in the stench of pain 
the agonny of dying alone
how do i tell you i love you?
how do i stop this?
you are the cure to my sickness
can you see me to heal me?
do you care enough to help me?
are you so cold you will stand and watch me die?

[ news report just in]

Lacianne Chellcy Russell Martin was found dead at her home in the bahamas at around 5:35pm, tuesday november 4th, 2008, a note was found but with evidence found on arrival the words faded so faintly no one could comprehend what was written. the crime scene unit didnt bother to investigate for this case wasnt homocide or sucide but was of natural causes...post mortem reveals she died from a broken heart. 


[breaking news*] 

a call just came in..it was said that miss russell was at the doctor about an hour before her death, the doctor told us....''as i listened to her chest, i heard no weezing but i had to ask if she suffered from heart problems because of the rate her heart was beating. it was as if it was chasign somting. i went on to examine her further where i found signs of a chest infection. i wrote her a note to the pharmacy for treatment to begin immeaditly.'' it is believed that she was too far along to be saved...the medicine was no help at all....now the search begins for the person who broke her heart!!!

50 Promises

I promise to laugh
I promise to cry
I promise to give
I promise to take
I promise to be here
I promise never to leave
I promise to listen
I promise to support you
I promise to be fair
I promise not to keep secrets
I promise to tell the truth
I promise to care
I promise to pay attention
I promise to be open minded
I promise to share my all
I promise be there when it rains
I promise to share a smile
I promise to respect you
I promise to do things the right way
I promise to be your best friend
I promise to trust you
I promise to compromise
I promise I will always listen
I promise to share your fears
I promise to finish what ever I started
I promise to dream with you
I promise to go where ever you go
I promise to learn new things
I promise to wipe each tear away
I promise to mean each kiss
I promise to always say sorry even if I was wrong
I promise to share your sorrow
I promise to be strong
I promise to never take you for granted
I promise to never loose faith
I promise to never let you feel alone
I promise to shelter you from the storm
I promise to work our problems out
I promise to be your partner alone
I promise to be here when you fall to catch you
I promise to be sincere
I promise to keep all my promises
I promise to be honest and true
I promise to never stop loving you

It’s why I love you

The way you make funny moves with your face
Or when you play it off when you ignore me
The way you roll your eyes when you feel my gaze
I hate the way you lick your lips when I come up close
I hate the way you stare at me
I hate it so much when you laugh at what ever I do
But this is why I love you
I hate so many things that you do but I don’t hate you
I love when you sit and let me stare without asking
I love when you kiss my lips goodbye and not my cheek
I love the way you search my eyes.
I hope you find what you were looking for in them for you always seem to smile. When I left you, that’s when I didn’t have much to say but that’s when I knew I loved you. Words couldn’t explain how I felt, and there is nothing you can do to change my mind. Ill try if you try, ill make this promise tonight…you can count on me for life, the more I learn the more I want, until my heart has had enough that’s when I am going to love you. I love you more than you ever know, these words are like orchids delicate and rare and even when you cant feel what I do…ill always love you.

Take me as i am........

Take me as I am…
I have given my all
I still don’t understand
Why can’t a dream come through?
The freedom in your arms
The hope that moves me
The wind playing across my face
Time adds to this flame
The more you push me away the more I am drawn to you
I am not the angel on the tree
I just wish your choice was me
I need you like water
Take my hand
Look into my eyes and let me know the truth
How you feel and what you see
Hold me when I cry
Listen to my thoughts
Come to my rescue and stand by me
For deep down ever since the night we met the safest place
I feel is in your arms with you…..

Its you

Its you
I keep on wondering if you will ever come through
I cannot stop thinking caught up
I keep thinking I am just running behind a dream
I was even thinking if this was wasting time
But I wasn’t seeing any signs
Was it because you were on your grind?
I go out with ma girls
Trying to have a good time,
Took a quick trip to erase you
But all I can see is the color of your eyes
And the thought of how you make me smile
But this is an illusion
Causing pure confusion
I am breaking apart
And you are leaving footprints on my heart
I leave a million messages
Telling you how much I miss you
Voicemails going crazy
Just wanting to know you ok
But am I doing too much?
What is the issue?
This is something I am not into
Breaking apart by doing too much…..

How do i breathe?

How do I breathe?
I am walking away
With no oxygen around me
I turn around to run back to you
But you are not there
I am consumed by fear
If I stay here it will be too late
I will die before you realize what happened
Now the pieces of my heart spell s.o.s
I saw your soul right through your eyes
I joined in your aura with your kiss
My love poured out like water
I am going to drown without you
How do I breathe?
Between the lines, between wrong and right
A tear on this page
Please go against the odds
For what is true
Your eyes already captured me
Her I am I can’t breathe with out you
In your arms I am dying
What are you doing?