what is love?

It never fails when you love someone its from the heart, its pure, its true, its all that one needs to survive. when a person falls in love its never by accident, its never by mistake. it happens because it should. its never a curse, its never a regret. to be able to love one you have to love your self. how can you share your all when you are not even sure of what you have to offer. a event of the past should not predict your future. love is passion. love is kind. love is honest....love is joy......love is respect.....love is honor.......love is compassion......love is true. to love some one you should respect them and their views.. to love someone you should... honor them for who they are... to love someone you should be able to tell them your secrets and trust and know you can trust in them you should be honest....i ask my self each day if i live by what i teach but i didn't and i wish everyday i did practise what i preach for i loved someone and honesty was not present in the relationship and with out that there is no trust and basically there was nothing.....when all the little thing i never thought mattered begun to grow and the only thing i had left was my words and love......so many times i wish that i could turn back the hands of time and go back to the day i went wrong. i wish i could change it all but that is the past and i refuse to let it predict my future. so now i live by my words for the pain of loosing the one you love is torture and torment to the soul. knowing you cant change what you have done but you can only spend the rest of your life paying for it. hurting someone is a scar in their lives, it will always be a memory to them. and even when you learn from your mistakes and you try to fix them it never works. but i know that when you love someone no matter what happen the many pieces of your scattered heart love that person more than ever.......and through thick and thin you are there and if you have to stand in the rain and wait for them to return you are there........and even when you have reach your lowest and cannot hurt any more or be sorry the only thing you can say to that person is I LOVE YOU.........

i love you

i love you and i wont supress it. i need you i am not goin to hide it. i miss you. you are ma glass rose and each ray of sun light that touches the crystal is a ray of your love. when i open my eyes and i listen to the birds chirpin and the dew is still on the grass, waitin that one day when i wake up you would be beside me and i will wake up to the whisper of your voice. as i go about my day thoughts of you pop up in my head every now and then, i smile, for no reason just thinbking of the silly things you do that makes me smile so much. and i tremble to your touch. your arms are like the petals of a flower protecting the style from harm, in your arms i am safe nothing can harm me. your love makes me stronger each day and your tenderness keeps me through this life... facing so many forces that forbid this love but feeds of each others care and faith to grow into one and over come that is in our way. i love you and i will tell the world. i miss you and you know it. i want you and you want me. i need you and i am still waiting on you........... what will your answer be?

When he walked away

I stood frozen like a crystal,
unable to move as i watch him turn away.

He walks slowly towards his car,
taps his pocket for his keys,
opens the door gently and get behind the wheels

Without looking back he drove off
and there i was standing in amazement
thinking of that wonderful sound of his voice whispering in my ear
his touch so tender against my body

Then like a rain drop rolling down a leaf
a tear fell out of my eye,
rolled down my cheek and splatter on the ground
still staring in mid air as if he was there

Slowly a humming begins
i am missing him already
soft and tender my heart beats faintly as if death was upon my lips
as i turn pale and my eyes become glass
my ego begins to dance about hoping he will be back soon

Waiting patiently as the week passes
thoughts rage through out my mind of him just being with me
then again i found my rose
my rose that was so beautiful and still in its glass case

A petal fell slowly
as it fell my heart became heavy
my eyes became a ocean
tears came running down my cheeks like a river

For the falling of a petal is the breaking of his love
still i wait for him to return
but such chance is now dead
for when he walked away
he left me frozen and my heart became a crystal rose
as the petals fall i become numb to the feeling of being loved once again.

This is for my ladies written by a bestie

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourselves for a relationship that's not meant to be Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year ! later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, Why would he treat you any differently? Always have your own set of friends separate from his. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later. You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less. Never let a man define who you are. Never borrow someone Else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs. You should not be the one doing! all the bending...compromise is two way street. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and your always readily available to him- he takes it for granted. Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need. Keep him in your radar but get to know others. Share this with other ladies..... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare. They say it takes minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them.

Missing you

missing you

you left me

alone in this world alone

everyday i wish you would just on home

everyone misses you nieces and nephews still morn

there was some many things we never got to say

we would love to have you back even for just one day

so many things we never got to do

so many times i wish i could have gone with you

i try to bear the pain

it only seems like everything has become a strain

but no matter i will never give up

i will do my best and keep my pride

we still wait for the day we will see you again

i will never forget how much you ment to me

you were my grandmother, mother and friend

together as one we will always be

i know one day we will all be together as a family again

we will sing,dance, eat and drink ever so happy

Dedicated to ROSE ELLA HARRISON (AUNTIE ROSE, ROSIE, MADA ROSE, MUM, GRAMA ROSE, SIS ROSE, MAMA, MOM) LA LA, DAUGHTER, MISS KITTY, DADDY B, JAMEIL WILCHOMBE, GRETEL HARRISON (AUNTY GRET, GRANNY), SIS ROB, ANNIE.

From your brothers, daughters, son,son in laws, daughter in laws, cousins, granddaughters, grandsons, nieces, nephews, family friends, best friends, and church family.

A risky lullaby

It is what keeps you alive, it a secret only you and him knows the truth. you cannot tell anyone because if you do you face the risk of torment and torture! you both don't what to have to deal with it. but its like a weak poison it is going to kill you but it takes a little while for it go in your system and when it gets there it travels slowly! they say love cannot die so you and him are in separable. you have quiet evenings alone when no one is around. no ones knows about this beautiful spur of love that shines so brightly but is deprived by consequences. just to have a little freedom would be appreciated just have a chance to prove it can work between them! but whatever is done between them is all a big risk. but taking that risk and not get caught is the melody of a risky lullaby when you close your eyes to go to sleep. then over and over again you come close to telling but u suddenly remember its not the choice of one but both person involved. How do you let them know he is the one who has style like a bently cruise or a special shoes! everytime you walk bye all the girls be looking at you! how do i tell them?

To Mr.King........

I love you

I love you so much its hard to say!But no matter what I am saying it today!You make my spine tingle!Thinking of you makes my feet wanting to dance while I hum a jingle!When I was a child to go to the beach is to play in sands but when you grow up you only want to find the hidden treasure in the sand. I have been searching for the one true person who wants me for me and I was blessed with a guy. Wow! He blows my mind. He does not have to go out of his way to make me happy just to listen to him pleases me. If I could make a wish my wish would be for him to be my lover, friend, companion, husband, and faithful rock to be strong for me when I can’t make it through. This guy is a one of a kind cutie he is Mr. Right who was waiting to sweep me off my feet, and I must say he did a darn good job. His smile his touch his big brown eyes they make me so weak and just want to fall into his arms. Baby I am sorry this started in to a poem but I am so over whelmed I have to finish it as an article. The little things in life that makes people happy are the things we all forget to do. My baby calls me from work when he is working late and that tells me I have a man who will be right there when I need him. I know I am getting a little carried away but bear with me for just a couple minutes more. I don’t care if you are not as tall as me you love reaches higher than the sky. And those pink lips that just leave me speechless every time I kiss them I only want to kiss them more. Your cute sexy walk is just smooth and I must say baby you balling. I think if I continue I will run out of pages to write on. And all I am trying to say is you make me happy and I love you and I will always love you no matter what happens I am here for you when you need me. And this wonderful guy who I am talking about is the one reading this right now! Baby! I love you boo!!!!!!

A monent in time

A moment in time


It is all you want he is perfect but what can you do? You have flaws and he wants more and you try and try but no matter what you can never get it right. He slowly drifts away from you and you do every thing you can just to hold on the little thread that keeps you alive. Then you finally break and everything over flows emotions run wild wrath become so sweet and you become cold and mean. But you still have that one tender spot for the one who makes you smile just as you hear his name, the one who makes you laugh no mater how horrible the joke was. The moment you fell in love your heart was his, for him to keep and protect. Then once upon a time a prince turned into a frog and he croaked. He took you for granted and because you love him so much you let it slide. Then there were days where you just begin to cry and you don’t know why. You never saw how sugar became salt so quick. But you love him so much you are willing to keep your salt and wait for it to turn back into sugar. You forgive and forget. You trust again and if you could trade your life for that one chance you would. Just to relive that one special moment, with him is heaven for you. And this is how much you love him but you might not show it and he has no clue. Just tell him! Let him know you will stop time just to stop him from making a mistake. You would do anything to show him that your moment in time is with him!

I am sorry

I am sorry if i forget to tell you how much i love you! I am sorry if i forget your birthday. I am sorry if i did you wrong. Sorry for the things i dint care about the things you need. Sorry for the time i never gave you. Sorry for the long nights and lonely afternoons. Sorry for not being there to comfort you. Sorry for the thing i dint do and the things i did. Sorry for never telling you the things that should have been said. Sorry if i didn't tell you what i am about to say.

I don't care about going out to fancy restaurants and expensive jewelery and tons of gifts. I do care about the one i love so much. I would trade my life for you if you needed it. I would give you my last breath if i needed to. I would give my life just for you. And i am guilty of all you accuse me of and i take full responsibility for it all. This is my apology to you will you please accept?

DEAR.........

I am sorry you never took the time to know me! you never took the time to understand!
the pressure is killing me just to keep up with the world. What the hell am i to do if i don't know? how the hell am i to get blame for actions of another person! when you cry in the rain your tears are hidden! when you are hurt your dreams are shattered! when your heart is broken you have no life. when someone goes away you sit in solitude. You wish and hope that someone would understand what you are going through. Things happen that we can never understand. things that is the most precious to you are your biggest secrets. I wish we can do things over again. We wish they took time to know us. NEVER LET THE FEAR OF STRIKING OUT KEEP YOU FROM PLAYING THE GAME! The thing that means the most to you is taken away you are broken into pieces because you have nothing else to do! When we look for answers we only get excuses. If you did it just let them you did and give them a dam good reason to back it up with! If you miss someone you cant seem to connect with tell them and make time for them to understand you.

If you love someone and you are hurting them but you don't know you are doing it?
when you love someone you are filled with love and joy and you get so carried away with your self you end up making mistakes and hurting them you apologise over and over again. Apology cant help you but just to explain your self and take the punishment that comes with it.
You wanna say goodbye but you don't know what to say, you don't want to hurt them. I don't want to see you cry or break in two it will only kill me to know i cause you that pain. When they are gone and there is no more baby boy to walk through the door no more butterfly kisses. No more hugs and birthdays there nothing else in a relationship that hurts more that hurting the one you love.

Promises are made to be kept to assure one that you will come through. Promises in a relationship only makes me worry. To hear the one you love say i love you and you are the only one and i PROMISE ill never leave is a joy and comfort to a woman. We are women we do things we cant explain we hurt people and we apologise sometimes we don't mean it sometimes we do but if you can admit what you did wrong and accept the guilt along with it you are doing the right thing.

If you think this will only be another one passing through you life they mean nothing to you don't stay. Not many women can fall in love and get over it some fall in love and cant get out some guys are like that too but its only pain to the other person in the relationship.

And a word to special people.......... if you don't want the truth to come out don't run behind the people who knows it don't treat them with isolation don't cut them out of your live because you always have precious strings attached and you don't want them to be clipped because it will hurt more than the truth would!

with love,

ANGEL

another used to be

how can you love someone if you dont like them?

It is clear to see that it would be just another page in history.
Pain is a part of happiness.
Love a person you never really like much.
Help someone who will never help you if you were dying.
Relationships are to be filled with fights and nights sleeping alone.
Marriage should be me sleeping down stairs.

None of these should be the idea in your mind if you love some one you should like them before you say i love you. For you to help someone who would never help you why should you help them? god wants us to help all. A relationship should be filled with flowers and a call from work saying i love you and i cant wait to see you after work. A marriage should be filled with a goodnight honey and a kiss. Love has no limit towards the greatness of love. If you love some one you dont have to explain your age difference with your companion. i am hoping what i am writing wont hurt no one if it does my apologies.

If a guy thinks being with a girl for one hour out of the week is a relationship you are only fooling yourself. A woman wants to be with the guy she loves, so much, she wants him with her until she falls asleep and wants to hear his voice when she wakes in the morning. To be an ex and still love the person who is no longer the person you come home to is the most painful thing. The thoughts of a person sholud no be it only one night with this person because one night can change your life you can fall in love with a person in just a second. If you didnt believe in love at first sight, try to believe it and it will be so amazing to show you it might be the right person you were looking for. If someone said you cant find love in the ghetto, tell them they dont know because they found it it does not mean no one else can find it there. Love is like a diamond in the ruff you might not be looking for it but you will stumble upon it. It shines and calls attention to the beautiful gem hidden. I you missed your love the fist time it will come back to you. The earth is round it revolves and whatever goes around come right back to you. Time after time someone will say if its true love it will come back to you. True love means you never leave the one you love, you never hurt them, you never let them down you always come through, always believe in them. Love is never an excuse to throw off a conversation or endless kisses to get out of a question. You are never afraid of telling them that you love them. You are never afraid of crying in their company. You never feel embrasses when they are laughing, you should laugh with them.

If you dont like a person dont tell them you love them. they would only become a page in history ANOTHER USED TO BE.

If you like someone and you cant expalin how much and you love them tell them you love them.





Glenroy i love you!

the heart

The heart in the medical world is the main organ in the human body. But in terms of a relationship the heart is where emotions spur from and where feeling develop and memories are stored.
To a doctor the heart is a delicate organ. To a person in love the heart is just as sensitive! This is where a person develops the feeling of attraction towards the other specie. If a person is in love then the heart will be filled with joy and happiness. But if a person is hurt emotionally the heart is sure to be under great stress. The heart can be torn emotionally but not physically. When the heart is torn it affects the whole body changing behavior and characteristics of the person! To be heart broken can mess up a person bad! To be heart broken can dive you crazy!
But most of all to be in love is the greatest gift you can give nothing but love

do you want to know?

Do you want to know?

Do you want to know if he loves you so?
Is it in his embrace?
No that’s only his arms!
Is it in the ways he say I love you?
No that is just to let you know!

Do you want to know if he loves you so?
Is it in his eyes?
No it just to mesmerize!
Is it in his eyes?
No you will be deceived!
Is it in his face?
No that is only his charm!

I want to know if this boy loves me so!
I will find it in his kiss! Kiss him and hold him tight and ill get my answer tonight!
Its in his kiss.

what a girl wants

A girl wants to look like she is the most beautiful girl in the world. She wants to feel like she is the sexiest girl alive. She needs attention and care. She needs love and compassion. She wants the perfect boyfriend that every other girls wants. She wants a man to blow her mind give her butterflies every time he is around. She wants him to remember every birthday, Christmas, valentines. She wants someone who would make her smile when she is mad and when tears are rolling down her cheeks. And when things go wrong he is beside her 100%. And no matter what she does he will always love her!

how can you loose some thing you never had?

How can you loose something you never had?
The one thing you love the most in life that you never had always seems like you owned it. You do everything like it belongs to you and you live like you are perfectly fine, but life, it doesn’t seem you are miss out anything. You walked across the moon and live like there was no tomorrow but, is it ok for you to do so? You won’t know the answer until you are willing to realize that you need to accept the facts that what ever you want and you can’t get it you have to let it go. Letting go is hard but on the other hand you cannot cry or be mad at your self for loosing something you never had! Your thoughts of the one special thing or person will never go away but remember you did not loose it! Why? It did not belong to you in the beginning but you had a choice to pick either you want to let the thought linger or you would get up and demand and work towards the goal of getting the most important thing to you! What is the most important thing to you?

what is life?

What is life?

In life one will experience many changes. should I accept them or just let them take me over? I don’t know how to find my answer but when you are not sure, always trust your guts. What is my gut saying? I am to take my self away from negative responses and live life as it comes by? Or by taking a breath and enjoy the gifts presented unto me?
Acceptance to certain things is very hard, but, how do I accept something my soul does not want?
What do I do?
Will it go away?
Will it destroy me?
I have no clue how to answer these questions but being irrational really won’t help me into getting better!
so I ask again what is life?
Do I let this be a ride and take the features with it? Or do I find my self and take a risk?
There are many questions, but most of all the main one is do I have a life?
Then I will ask my self what kind of life do I have?
So what am I asking?
We only get one chance in life so I suggest we live it like we love it and accept the reality that it can be very mean!
what is life?
do you have a life?
what is your life?

LACIANNE .C. MARTIN